UP, UP, UP AND AWAY WE GO! Except on wheels!

Jan. 19, 2010


Well, boys and girls, the show is about to begin. Take your seats and hold on tight. It's bound to be a slippery ride.


Off into the world we go, it's winter time out there. Blustery winds and snow hurricanes embellished in crystal ice.


The beastly King of Winter rears it's tremendous head and rips out of the sky avalanches of ice and snow and blows.


But, the Knightly King of the Highway pushes forth with his gallant and powerful steed, to the mountains of the East coast and on to Baltimore. This is where I am hoping you are laughing.

This will be fun. I wanted adventure so I guess this will be it. A dually and a three-car trailer and off we go. Hopefully this will find us where we need to be financially so that we can fix our big truck. Not yet a Big Rig, but it's economy size and I will suffer for now in hopes of being rewarded with a much larger and more on the side of luxury home to fit on the back of a Big Rig. So, we are off to Baltimore, Md. And then hopefully after that we will be off to Vegas to deliver a giant generator for a movie set. So this could get exciting. Hang in there with me and we will find out.

Cross Roads, Wich Way Do I Go?

Hey there,

So as you know or may not know, I have been attempting to earn a Bachelors Degree in Photo Journalism. This is not going so well. My classes were so tight and six classes in a row with no break in between was just a ridiculous thought let alone a ridiculous action. This semester has me locked in a corner I can't get out of. So, I must move on. Not taking any action at all is worse to me than going backwards, but, this is just a break to work on my portfolio. I have only had to back up and turn around because I missed my exit. Right. I hope you are laughing because I am. I really got upset after the second day of classes and called my dad. I told him that I wanted him to get God down here because I was fed up with the way life is going and felt like he could at least present himself in person if he could create the earth and all. I was fuming mad. Nothing was going my way. I could not handle the load. I wanted someone to tell me which way to go and what to do and I would just do it because of my indecisiveness. Before you know it every way I turned a big wall was slamming down in front of me preventing me from going any direction except one. Yes, the only way out of this room is through a door that literally leads into living inside a dually with Jeff, my lover, my man, my best friend, oh my goodness, am I still going to feel this way after a couple of weeks inside a little bitty truck without a sleeper with my man. I guess we are going to see because I guess it is out to sea for me and the muck that lives amongst the highways and byways of America. Yeah, me. Listen, listen, and listen for the sarcasm. We are laughing on the outside. That is what matters. Okay, we are”Moving on”. I actually stole that saying from my best friend in the whole wide world, Jennifer Carpenter. That is one amazing woman and a great inspiration. She is the epiphany of the perfect generation x mother, wife, student......the list is endless and hopefully you will meet her here. I invite you all to interfere, interject, start something or just be plain silly on my blog and make this exciting.

I am moving on to a new part of my life and heading out into the wild blue yonder with my man. I hope you come along and see where the road takes us.



Thanks for reading

Being a photo journalist student in a school that does not offer it as a major is difficult. I think I have changed classes 4 times now and my major but, I push on. Jeff is working all local work right now and home every night. That is wonderful. It is "getting" us closer and closer to that dream of being an accredited photo journalist and owners of a bad ass truck that can go anywhere (We have our passports) and can carry my home. "Patience dear", that is what I hear. Well, moving on and pushing forward.

I will share something with you though that is mushy, but it's art. My art.

     He is Many

He is, a sweet magic spell

And oh, how he amazes me.

A prisoner forever

In his hypnotic grip

Is this man or is this beast?

As he sleeps

Wonder entrances me

That someone so strong

Can be so soft

That all his heroic strength

That comes with the sun,

Can overwhelm me

And weaken me to my knees

I have surrendered

Completely unaware

As in a dream

Way off somewhere.

Amazing, tantalizing

Hypnotic and rare

So close now

I feel his stare.

I feel his breath

I feel his warmth

Envelope me

Overtake me.

Heaven above, hear my thanks

For all I see within those eyes.

Starlit pools of blue

Mesmerizing

That passionate stare.

It keeps me prisoner

forever

an addiction

In that sweet magic 

so very rare.

Dreams.... Sex, Love and the 40's

Come on SUN. Come on out and melt winter blues away. To the left is the baby truck we take out into the world to make us the money we are hoping to make to get the truck that I really want.

This is the truck I really want. Still dreaming. No new trucking news so, here is an article from my portfolio. Hope you enjoy. Thanks for the support.






Sex, Love and the 40’S


Alright boys and girls, here comes the 40th Birthday. Now hold on to your shorts, and I mean literally. A lot of people think "No big deal. I can handle this. I don't feel 40 or look 40 so why should I be 40? Right?" We think to ourselves. "Don't make it a big deal. There are more important things in my life to deal with; I am not going to get all caught up with my age!"

Then there comes the big life jolting changes. The kids Move Out. They can no longer be the center of your attention. Their lives do not revolve around you.

Then someone say's: Do you know how old that perfect twenty-something looking person is? They are 40! Then we really start looking at ourselves in the mirror and we become almost desperate to gain back that youthful glow. To be seen as sexy and hot.

Men start to experience more intense emotions. Whoah! What was that? Oh, yeah, and they become sensitive and way, way, way beyond the normal when it comes to sexual desires that start roaming around in their heads. They are 40 yr. old victims of the comeback of the 18 yr. old hormones stuck inside a much older body And, it's not “as” easy to gain relief at this age.(laugh).

The feeling of being young and single again is overwhelming, even when married, as a couple, you have the euphoria of being single again.

There have been experiences of desires that tend to be wild and crazy; incredible temptations and desires to do crazy fun wild things. Some things, that at any other time in life, most of us would never even consider. Most of the hold up or second thoughts are due to how much control we allow society to have over what you believe to be right and wrong. The thought of applying logic and reason to gain emotional stability and a person’s thoughts toward their moral virtue versus their social reputation that they allow others to see. In other words, who a person is and who they portray themselves to be in society.

Some experience intense insecurities.

Feelings of rejection seem to jump out from everywhere. Some of us would feel so, much better if someone would just say that you really are sexy!



Experiencing fantasies with each other? Better? Worse?

Turning against each other to fulfill those fantasies alone because of thoughts that the other won't understand? That is what separates us from each other. Help each other live out those fantasies. Be a part of the fantasies. That is how we grow closer together. There is nothing I can't do without my man. It's all part of the sexual experience of life. Tell your lover all your secret desires even if those desires don't involve them. You never know what kind of response could come. Being honest? Cheating? Affairs? Why?



Love. Sex. Making Love. Is there a difference. To me there is a difference. Love, you share with your partner in life. When it comes to sex? At least we always involve each other.

Guy's, has another guy ever turned you on and it freaked you out?

Girls, has a woman ever turned you on? Acted on it? Why?

Need for self assurance? Is there maybe a desperate need to be the center of attention for once?

There will be a new and improved you once we get past the issues of sharing yourself completely with another person. The partner you share your life is your best friend, your confident, your lover and the person you do all those wild and crazy things with that you could never do with anyone else. That is love, to me.

Well, back to the grindstone of trying to support my partner in his financial endeavors and his trucking business. Wish him well as he chooses to set off without me so that I can continue on with school so that when someone does see my work then they will also see that I have credentials.

Yeah! It's Winter People! There will be ICE AND SNOW.......

The day is gray. White snow is everywhere. The tree's that look sadly dead. The roads are filthy with slush and dirt, the trucks look the same. There are drivers that look tired and haggard, but, snow? they say "So what! It's snow and ice. It's always going to come and go. That never stops drivers. They keep pushing out there. That is thier job, their livelyhood. When there is work, they take it. It is scary. There have been plenty of times that I have had to close my eyes, pray and faith.


Today I have good new and bad news. The good news is that we are not out there. The bad news is that there is no work to be had. So, in this season there are a lot of people out there with the same story. This can turn into a positive thing though. Time has come for life reflections and self examinations. It all comes down to the fact that no matter what socitey does during this time of the year there will be moments where we will all be stuck. Not able to do much but think, so there is no better time to reflect on ourselves. How are we moving? Are we moving? Not much time for ruts in this life. Sometimes the direction doesn't even matter but that we are moving. Moving forward is always the best and you may be but it just doesn't feel like it.

Life changes. It can't be stopped. So maybe it's how we change with it that determines the directions we are going in our lives. I have a big question. Here goes.

IF YOUR LIFE DID NOT REVOLVE AROUND ANYONE ELSE BUT CAN ONLY BE MOVED OR CHANGED BY YOUR ACTIONS ONLY, NOT REVOLVING AROUND SOMEONE ELSE, WHO WOULD YOU BE? WHERE WOULD YOU BE?

Is that a big question or what? If you were giving the opportunity to decide what you wanted to be or do and told that your achievments would be the only way to move ahead and improve, who would you be?

I am not 100% sure but I know somehow it would have involved what I am doing now, just a lot sooner in my life. Does everything happen for a reason?